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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Cold

He comes to her, he holds her,
He kisses her, but she turns her face,
He asks her what's wrong, aren't you my lover,
Or has someone else taken my place.

She laughs, softly, a low chuckle that gets lost in the breeze,
She looks at him with the tears that he hates to see,
And she says,

The man I thought I loved,
The man I once knew,
He has long since gone.
Yes, someone has taken his place.
Someone who knows not the difference between the truth and a lie.
Who worships deceit more than the benefit of his soul
Who looks upon me , with those lying eyes
Deceiving me into believing that he was reformed.

You used to be my shoulder to cry on,
Now someone else's shoulder I will seek,
No longer will I touch your hand,
For your hand is cold.

Labels: Deceit, Poetifulness

xx signed off at 2:58 PM

The Betrayal

She stood there, staring at the screen, her heart both pounding incessantly, yet, so slowly , she could swear time was stopping. The empty sickening pit that was forming in her stomach made her feel like gagging, the tears that slowly gathered in the crook of her eye, so dangerously close to spilling. The raw anger and the brutal hurt welled up inside her, the sheer animal need to see him hurt, the way she had been. Yet, the still burning love for him.

She closed the computer.
She closed her eyes.
She wished for one moment that he never existed.
She wished for one moment that their paths had never crossed.
She wished that she had never said hello to him in class.
She wished that she had never touched him.
She wished he had never asked her out.
She wished he had never said I love you.
She wished for one moment that he had meant it.

She clenched her fists tightly, and tried not to cry.
The desperate tears drowning her, the violence of the heartache she felt, swelling through her fingers, the blood rushing through her, soaring, incredible, the highest high due to the lowest low. Her lips quivered, trying to keep back the strangled sob of hate. The insanity of the million emotions flooding through her. So much anger, anger she had never felt before. She tried to breathe, but she was so scared she'd just scream. She felt her body shake, the rancid smell of weakness flooding her brain, the vehemence towards which she did not regard his state, so much as her state of being. The disappointment that she had let him in. That she had believed. That she had trusted. Every lie, every truth, the difference so subtle, she could barely tell.
The words began to swim as the brine of emotion in her eyes continued to gather. There, in that moment, she died.

Labels: Anger, Betrayal, Hurt, Poetifulness

xx signed off at 2:54 PM

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Car Crash Waiting To Happen

Here we are again,

Same old story,

Telling our tale,

The one where they get to see Prince Charming fail,

The one where they forgot to say that this ending,

Couldn't be happy unless they did a lot of pretending.

Prince Charming and his princess they were one.

Hand in hand, they had so much fun.

But then, he would ride his great steed into the night,

And out of mind proved to happen when she was out of sight.

I'm that princess,

The one you left back,

The girl who wishes that she crossed your mind.

I'm the broken heart,

I'm the one you tore apart,

Now it's time for forgetting, but not forgiving,

Because you and I both could see it clear back then,

We were just a car crash waiting to happen.

I'd say, Hey, honey, how are you?

Wouldn't hear anything for a day or two,

Call up your cellphone just to hear your voice,

You're so sleepy on the other end, you just don't sound so nice.

I wait night and day to hear the phone ringing,

To feel like maybe I'm the one you're thinking,

Of when you sleep,

When you dream,

When you laugh and when you cry,

But no , I'm not,

So I'll just learn your lie.

Oh, when flames come crawling to burn these bridges down,

I won't stand here and regret,

When the whole world stops except you and me now,

I won't do the things you expect,

No ,

I'm that girl,

The one you left back,

The girl who wishes that she crossed your mind.

I'm the broken heart,

The one you tore apart,

Time's come now for forgetting and forgiving,

Because after all, we knew, we were just a car crash waiting to happen.

Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 12:16 AM

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Little Girl

Hey there, little girl,
I see you crying there,
Your little red dress and your pretty little tears,
You're crying cuz you know why I've called you here
You know what I'm about to say,
You and him, it's time to call it a day.

Those pearls he gave you, just cut the string and throw them away.
Like your love for him, the memories will fade away.
Don't worry about the pictures, I'll help you burn them
Don't worry about your heart, girl, I'll help you hurt him,
I'll help you look him right in the eye when you're ready,
I'll help you tell him goodbye, when your voice gets steady.
And I'll be here to make your tears dry,
Oh, baby girl, why do you cry?

You gotta grow up fast, in this hurtful world,
I know you're innocent, and you trust, you crazy little girl,
Don't take no for an answer,
Don't let him pull you back in,
Don't let him think that in the end, your lalalala love can win,
Because here's the truth that I've been trying to keep from you,

This is what he's doing, what's he doing, tonight this is what he is gonna do,
He's cheating, cheating really badly on you,
This is true, and you've known it,
Love's old-school these days,
Yeah, you've blown it.

All that makeup and that pretty black hair,
He led you daintily down the stair,
Pretty necklace and not a trace of despair,
Could've sworn he was barely there.
Sunset dangling on your cheek,
Did he even give you a chance to speak?
As he whispered, "darling, please don't cry,
I really did give this whole thing a try,
But I just don't feel the same,
And its not you, it's me to blame."

Don't let it get to you,
It's really not your fault that he couldn't be true,
He's a man, and that's their schtick,
The only brain he has is in his dick.
All the pictures of other girls on his phone,
And the videos he kept at his home,
Yet , chance after chance you gave him,
Hoping he'd find the strength within,
To resist the temptation of looking at other girls,
When to you, he was your entire world.

Now, now, stop this crying,
You know it'll pass, all the pain,
And one day you'll learn to feel again,
Take it a day at a time,
He'll realise you're now mine.
He'll be kicking himself so hard that you're holding my hand,
I know it's hard right now, but in a year , you'll understand.

This is what he's doing, what's he doing, tonight this is what he is gonna do,
He's cheating, cheating really badly on you,
This is true, and you've known it,
Love's old-school these days,
Yeah, you've blown it.

Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 11:08 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Shattered

There's not enough time in my life to hate you,
Not enough time to wish you never existed,
Nothing left in my heart for you,
So go on, walk away before I make you regret you ever lived.

No one has ever treated me like you did,
No one has ever made me love you like you did,
No one has ever gotten away with a lie like you did,
But here's to knowing ya, kid.

Here's to you,
Here's to us,
Here's to all the lies, you left inside,
Now watch me throw you under the bus.
Here's to you,
Here's to all your games,
That you play,
I hope today,
You die in your pain.

Loving you,
Was like loving a thorn in my side,
Hating you,
Was so much easier not to hide,
Wanting you,
I resisted the desire not to cry,
Needing you,
You won't ever bring any more tears to my eyes.

Because you know that you don't have that effect on me,
No, not anymore, I'm loving the way you look when you walk out that door.
And all the pain that wells up inside,
I refuse to let you walk out of here alive.
I'll cut into your sweet facade,
You'll be wishing you could change who you are.

So come on, step up, take your shot,
At this stone cold beating heart,
Come on, wake up, take your bets,
Will I crack or will I scar,
Your poor little broken-hearted pool of lies,
Please don't look at me with those cheating eyes.

Here's to you,
Here's to us,
Here's to all the lies, you left inside,
Now watch me throw you under the bus.
Here's to you,
Here's to all your games,
That you play,
I hope today,
You die in your pain

And no, I feel nothing.
No remorse.
No shame.
I'm too tired to play this game.
And no, I won't shed a tear.
Nothing for you,
Go on, get out of here.
And no, I won't hurt your friends,
They don't,
They won't
They never really cared.
No, the only bounty I want is sitting right there in your hands.

Here's to you,
And all the lying that you know how to do,
I hope the next girl that has to entertain you,
Is ready to be loved by a experienced liar.
Here's to me,
And all the happiness I now have the right to feel,
And watching you go just seems to get more real.

Oh, baby, please, don't act so flattered,
It's not like any of this really mattered,
I just wrote to let you know,
Nothing you can ever do will make me hurt so,
Thank you but you see,
You just don't exist to me,
And when everything else is better,
Here's to you, here's to me, here's to us, we're shattered.

Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 11:53 PM

Someday Soon

Have you ever woken up sometimes and just thought, goddamnit, life just isn't that bad, is it?
And then you get dressed, have a bath, walk out and it rains down upon you like God is just about as emo as he's gonna get. And you stand there thinking, it's ok, i have an umbrella
Then you step in a puddle
then you get all soggy
then you smell like wet dog
then you're on a train and it smells like a giant fart
then you get off the train and now you smell like a wet dog who just farted
then you get onto a bus and you now look like a wet dog who just farted who is also sitting close to someone else who smels like a wet dog who just farted
then you go to uni and sit in a whole lecture theatre of boys and someone just farted
and you go home.
Well, THAT'S MY LIFE :P
Oh, and so is poetry
so here goes! :)

Wishing On You -Me

So here it goes,
The story as it's written, as it's told
No torn up pages, no ink that's gotten too old,
Just simple letters, in the smallest picture that I can paint,
Of how you were mine, and now you ain't.
And of all the laughs, and all the tears we cried,
And how beautiful we really looked that night,
And how something slowly was dying inside,
And how every night I'm wishing for your hand in mine

I'm wishing on a rainbow
Wishing on a star,
Somewhere out there,
That's where you are,
Your eyes, your smile, your perfect way of making me feel like it's all okay
It just can't all be true, so
I'm wishing on you, for you.

So I'm standing here,
Hoping that somewhere out there you left a clue,
Of what I'm meant to do in my life without you,
No one left here in this desert to understand,
How it feels to not hold your hand.
To not know that you're walking back down the street,
Arms open wide, waiting to hug me,
Wiping away tears and piecing together all my dreams,
Why does God take away everything,
And leave me here with nothing, but memories of you, and me

Wishing on a rainbow,
Wishing on a star,
I don't know where you went, boy, but I know it's too far,
I just wanna hear your voice, feel your fingers on my face,
I wish to hell I'd get out of this place,
But I'm just so tired of running,
Why can't I stop wishing on you,
For You.

All I remember now is you standing here,
Just this spot, right here, next to this tree,
I remember you living life without a fear,
And then the headlights spinning and I wasn't near,
I remember the way you looked into my eyes,
The way you held my hand and whispered goodbye
The way you made it seem like you were free,
But how could you,
How could you,
Leave me wishing on you, wishing on me.

Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 10:47 PM

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Waking Up Asleep

Nobody notices my tears,
Nobody sees how you've cut me so deep.
Nobody sees the lies behind my fears,
They tell me stop your foolishness,
Why do you cry for a man that once was,
When all he's done is hurt you bad,
Is it because I've gone completely mad.

Is it because I feel like without him I'm waking up asleep
Is it because without his voice , this heart will cease to beat
Is it because that I can live with his lies,
As long as he lives with me.

Sometimes I walk alone on the street,
Remembering how his hand used to guide me,
Lead me away from the dark,
Sitting by lakes in a park.
And then he did what he did
I guess he had to do what he had to do
But it makes me mad to have loved him completely,
But then again, I'd be lying if I said I didn't love you

Is it because when you looked at me and told me you were confused
That my heart shattered into pieces, because you let my trust fall through
Is it because your eyes so well disguised all your gut-wrenching lies
Is it because no matter what you say, I can't leave your

Body,
Can't leave your
Soul
I can't forget the promises
I can't even listen to rock and roll
I can't stop looking at those messages
I can't stop wondering why
I can't stop thinking about missed chances
I can't even stop to cry
I can't remember what we once were
Because I can't stop forgetting who we are
I can't imagine you without thinking of her
I can't erase the scar

I wish I could forget
Erase these memories
Go back to what we once were,
Before your loyalty left me
I wish I could slap you,
Turn you back into my prince,
I wish you could write me letters,
But you haven't held me since.

And I'm sleeping under the covers,
Hugging my pillow,
I'm sleeping on your shoulder
Wishing you didn't let go
I'm sleeping in your empty space,
Still smelling your scent,
I'm wishing I hadn't said,
All those things that I meant
And I'm wishing that you could keep,
My heart in a safer place,
But I'm so tired of waking up asleep,
I'm so tired of your smiling face.

Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 11:06 PM

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Pick Up

Ticking,
Ticking,
The clock is ticking,
And my heart is beating still.
Sticking,
Sticking,
My shirt is sticking,
To my body as I swallow another chill.
Loving,
Loving,
Loving you,
Is taking,
Taking,
So much out of me,
Being,
Being,
Being around you,
Is the best feeling I wanted to never feel.

Because I , I'm in love with you,
I love you, yeah, you,
With no questions asked anymore,
But I , I don't know what to do
Because I love , love you,
But you won't pick up your phone.
Won't pick up your

Early Monday, I give you a ring,
Say hello, and good morning,
You say hey, hey, please put down the phone now,
I got a dream to catch up to.
And I've had those beautiful moments,
Where your voice breaks the silence,
And I've had those beautiful minutes,
Where I realise I'm in a race, and you're gonna win it.

I, I really love you, really love you,
Yes, I really really really
But I, don't know what to do,
Driving me crazy, you,
Because I want to hear your voice
Pick up the phone, boy

I love hearing you say my name first thing everyday
I love watching you come up to me, telling me that it's all okay
I love listening to the sound of your heartbeat, I can almost hear it now,
I love knowing that you're loving me, loving me,
But then you break it all,
Break it all,
When you put down the phone,
Yeah, you cancel the call.
Don't you see it now,
Exactly how,
You're breaking my heart,
Turning it upside down,
You're breaking my heart
By not making a sound.

And I
Really Love you
Don't know what to do
And you pretty much are stuck to me too,
But you, you're such a fool
Such a crazy dude,
Don't even talk long enough to tell me the truth

Because I , I'm in love with you,
I love you, yeah, you,
With no questions asked anymore,
But I , I don't know what to do
Because I love , love you,
But you won't pick up your phone.
Won't pick up your
Won't pick up your phone.

And now I'm getting your messagebank tone.
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Labels: Poetifulness

xx signed off at 1:30 AM

In your arms again

Today I spoke,
I said,
I whispered,
I made a sound,
That got drowned in the wind.
Today I laughed,
I cried,
I slept here,
I tried to scream,
But all I could hear was my heartbeat within.

I want to wake up and understand,
I want to wake up and touch
Your hand.
I want to wake up and feel the pain,
I want to cry, I want to cry,
In your arms again.

I heard you say,
You don't know me anymore,
I heard you wish,
You could touch my core,
I heard you laughing,
While you were on the phone,
I heard you whispering,
You just left me alone.

I heard your apathy,
I heard your sad smile,
I heard you laugh at me,
I heard it all the while,
I cried on my shoulder,
Because you wouldn't offer me yours,
I knew it was over,
You knew by my scars......

I want to wake up and understand,
I want to wake up and touch
Your hand.
I want to wake up and feel the pain,
I want to cry, I want to cry,
In your arms again.

You got up from the bed,
I got up from the floor,
You kissed my hair,
I ran to the front door,
Nobody saw us, standing there in pain,
Not that their words would helped, their words in vain,
I, I , I know, I know now,
That you, you , you know, that this isn't going to work out,
But how, how , how , how,
Do I make you stop leaving me,
How do I make you stop hating me,
How do I make you start loving , needing, wanting, breathing, feeling, seeing,

I want to wake up and understand,
I want to wake up and touch
Your hand.
I want to wake up and feel the pain,
I want to cry,
I want to cry,
In your arms again.
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Labels: Poetifulness

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Somebody In Kansas City Loves Me

La la la.
I'm feeling a tad emo today, which is why i decided to revamp my blog look, maybe go for the more emo pink black thing. Its not that i'm becoming emo, I'm just having a downer day.

On a brighter note, I am listening to some sexalicious music. Absolutely addicted to Kansas City by Sneaky Sound System. I swear, this band cannot make a bad song. There's somethng juicy and scrumptious about their song, a sort of desperate need for someone across the world, a heady mix of electro beats, and coupled with a sensational Oh Oh at the end of every chorus, which it's slight repetitive lines make for a definite Stuck-In-Head Forever song.
This song is a beauty, thou must watch it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnpG1Bl-DFQ
Credit : Sneaky Sound System
Song: Kansas City

Rating : 10 million stars

Also, I've just recently come to like Are You With Me by The Potbelleez, the guys who brought you the revamped version of Don't Hold Back, that summer sizzler :P
IT is a GOOD VID
The dancing is awesome, and the song is tres tres awesome too.
Listen to it!

On other news,
Tomorrow my results will come out and I will finallyfind outwhether this course is really the one for me. Talk about nailbiting, I swear, I am seriously stressing out, and am so so so so scared I'm going to lose my scholarship, or have to repeat a unit or an exam or something, it's just dreadful, I hate this sort of stress, really.

What else? Oh, well, my b'day's coming up soon! The big 1-8!
I am trying desperately to get my mum to let me go out, or at least have a dinner, but mummy dearest is much too scared that if i am let loose, I will be queen of all slagginess.
Someone, help me, give me some sort of Law thingie that will allow me to twist my mother's arm?
Not literally, of course! My mummy cooks too well, twisting her arm will destroy that completely. Plus, me love mummy! Me no want mummy be in pain.
Erm, what else?
Oh, well, I've been spending most of my holidays trying to get in shape ( gymming at Curtin, cheah ) and watching movies. I saw S"hort Circuit, I don't know how many of you have, but it is soooooooooooooooo cute! Number 5 is ALIVE. Neeeeeeeeddddddd moooooorrrrreeeeee inpppputttttttttt
It's such a cute movie, I'd advise you go out to your nearest Blockbuster or VideoEzy or Civic and rent out SC 1 and 2. Johnny Number 5!
:)
Another movie that I've taken quite a shine to is of course, Kenny. I haven't seen it before, but god, what a lovely movie! It's so raw and so funny and gives you such a perspective into those portaloo people who no one really knows about. It really is hilarious, and his language is HAHAHAHAHAHAH absolutely awesome. If I could write a book, it would have about 80% kenny in it , it's so funny.
You have to watch it , is all I have to say.
Erm, what other news is there?
Oh, yes, poetry.. My cousin told me I should write some poetry and rekindle my passion for that art, because lately I seem toonly have a passion for downloading music and watching reruns of Ladette to Lady.
So here goes:

Lie - Me

Kicking at the stones at the road,
I followed you all the way home,
I took my time and waited till you saw me coming,
Told you that you're the one,
The man I'm loving.

And then,
You turned your head,
Turned around and said,
"I'm so sorry
So- so- Sorry.
I never meant,
To hurt you, friend,
But this is not our story,
I can't be yours, see,
I am already taken."

I am lying,
Slowly dying,
Wishing I could be your one,
Wondering how you,
Knew what I would do,
And how you broke my heart.

I only wish,
I could tell you,
How much I have learnt to hate you,
I wish I could change your mind,
I wish I could turn back time.

I didn't see that light in your eyes,
When you held my hand,
Tried to make me understand

But I couldn't mistake your lies,
When you held her hand,
Tried to make her understand

I can see now, the truth,
How you lie, you fool,
I didn't think you were so cruel.

I can see now, the fire,
The fire in her eyes,
As she finds out that you were untrue.

I can see the lie, and she can too.
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Ok that was random, and a piece of shit :) but that's what you get for writing in the space of a minute. Oh well.
Erm, i guess I was trying to aim for the image of this girl, who really has a big crush on thismystery guy/friend and he rejects her and says he's taken, like he's some sort of saintly person and doesn't usually cheat. then I meet the girl who calls herself his gf and then we both mutually realise that something is not right baout this guy, and we both end up discovering the truth about him.

Wala. Insightful isn't it? I don'tknow where I pull these ones out of .

NEXT!

brb!
xx Netty

Labels: movies, music, Poetifulness, reviews, Vids

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

You Burn Me

I just felt inspired to write poetry, I get this way when I have headaches.
I have been watching movie after movie continously for the last two days, it is starting to affect my mental health methinks.
Now, poetry :

Lost in You - Me

I don't understand anymore,
If this pain that I feel,
Is my heart behind a locked door,
And you threw away the key.

It sort of feels like I've been here before,
Like these tears are coming back to haunt me,
And I don't think I want to feel sore,
But sorrow's a probability.

And there's no piece of me left that you haven't shattered,
There's no love that you haven't sucked me dry of,
I've fallen at your feet, so many times, I'm battered,
And this emotion you've left me with, this undying love,
Is tearing me, into a million pieces of who,
I used to be,
And you've got me saying, I'm so sorry,
I'm just lost , so lost, in you.

You could call me names,
You could hit me across the face,
But somehow I come back to you, the treatment's always the same,
But in your arms, I find a better place.

I feel like I've been ripped in two,
I feel like nothing makes sense,
Like I'm just a part of who's standing in front of you,
And I can't say I love you in the past tense

No one understands, that who I am was who you made me out to be,
And now I'm too far gone, too far gone this cold, winding road to see,
That everything, everything I thought I was,
Was what I wanted to be for you,
And somehow, because,
I let myself get too lost in you.

I'm a broken soul,
Nothing of me is normal,
I will never again be whole,
I'll just hope to be free from your torment,
Because all I am,
All I wanted to be,
Was what you said,
What you said you thought you saw in me,
But I don't know,
I don't know what it is you thought you'd seen

Because I've tried so hard,
To be who you thought I should,
I've tried it all,
I did all that I could,

And just when I thought I'd lost everything I had before,
You said you were coming back ,
And now I see you there, walking back through my door,
You're like a sharp heart attack

sorry,
I said it's over,
You said forgive me,
I said I'm not sober,
You said you loved me,
Said you needed me,
What am I supposed to do,
Am i supposed to take you back just because I've lost myself in you?

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Another one i should think, before I hop in for a shower , ^_^

There's a soft little sound,
While I'm lying on your bed,
I'm trying to get my feet on the ground,
And trying to get you out of my head,

And you come back from your shower,
And stare at me naked on your sheets,
And you tell me to get up and go,
And our eyes meet.

Baby, how does it feel,
Knowing you can't control me,
How does it feel,
Knowing that you need me.
Oh why can't those glaring eyes see ,
That everytime you try to force me,
I tell you go screw yourself, go screw yourself, my baby.

So I'm telling all these voices,
That I should be letting go,
Of something that's hurting me inside,
Yes, I know,
That girl I saw you with last week,
She wasn't just a friend,
She and I, we got a chance to speak,
And all your dirty little secrets she did tell.

Was it not good enough for you,
All the nasty things I let you try,
All the places I let you take me to,
And for all the things you got off on that made me cry?

Time waits for no man,
So I'm going to have to speed things up,
Kill you the best way I can,
Because you're messing me up, messing up our love,

I saw you with her,
Her pretty little blonde head,
I hope you remember,
How she looked lying sprawled on your bed,
And I hope you said to her,
How much you loved her beautiful body
Because I've just done something,
Done something that amazes me,

I've made you regret,
I'm forcing you to respect,
I want you to forget,
That slut who put her hands down your pants, yes
And if you know me well enough,
You'll know I never give up,
Your luck has just run out, oh, isn't it tough?
I murdered your beautiful girlfriend.

xxooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooo
Ok, that one was a bit hmmmmm....
Lol, it was inspired by this movie, where this guy and girl like each other, and then purposely to screw with her feelings the guy cheats on her, with this hot chick, and the girl kills the chick.
MUCHO PSYCHO ^_^
Anyways, shower. Mwahz, love you all.
xx
Netty

Labels: Poetifulness, Rantification and Randomity

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

Poetry Time

Why Do You Love Me? - Me

Everything I want you to be,
I've left inside this note for you to see,
Everytime I look at you,
I feel like I've lost the truth.

And the stone is shattering,
The cold is numbing,
I'm falling through the cracks.
My heart is wondering,
I am shuddering,
Who am I?

Why does it have to hurt to,
Why does it have to hurt you,
Nothing you say can make me,
Love you the way you love me.

Take your hands off me,
I'm not your property,
I don't need to say sorry,
You should be apologising to me.
Every word that I say,
You take away,
Make me wish that I was blind.
Every word that you don't mean,
I feel unclean,
How do you live inside?

No one loves a loser, so you lose me,
No one want to hurt this badly,
You could never own me, my heart beats differently,
Now you only own my shell, go to hell.

Love is just hormones in us,
Everything is just a fuss,
It's nothing really worth this pain,
So why am I crying again?

Don't you understand,
I cannot cry anymore,
Don't you hold my hand,
I don't want to see you, go home

Nothing is okay,
Nothing is the same,
You think you can slap me,
Well, if it makes you happy.

Why do you want me?
What makes you want me?
Did you do this to taunt me?
Is this why you haunt me?

Does hurting me hurt you?
Does it leave you lying confused?
You're reaching out for me,
You're not what you used to be.

You leave me out here,
Watching me disappear,
I'm standing here, knowing,
That your grief is growing,
Why don't you leave me,
Why don't you let me be,
Maybe you counted me out,
Of your famous little scheme,
Maybe you know what this is about,
Go hide behind your dream.

I think I thought I knew you,
But now I know the truth,
You're not all you made yourself out to be,
You're always there, just not with me.
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L.O.V.E - Me

I'm sitting here in the dark,
Watching all the lights switch off,
No one understands the truth,
That I was really in love with you.
No one picked up your phone today.
No one looked for you to say,
I'm not happy without you,
I'm not living without you.

All the windows are closing,
The blinds are pulling in,
No one knows I'm standing,
Waiting for you to come home

What happened when I,
Close my eyes,
Trie to picture you standing there.
I want to hold you,
But I can't feel you,
Because I don't think I can or that you care.

No one knows this,
But I'm in love with you,
No one knows this,
And I don't know what to do.

Somehow, you knew I would make a fool of myself,
Somehow, did you know I was loving you and no one else,
When do, I get up and tell you I'm hurting,
When do, I say, " I can't live alone again."

So, I'm ranting and rambling,
Tossing and turning,
Can't see myself rhyming,
Because I'm totally confused,
With you

My friends tell me,
I'm a little bit crazy,
I like the guy who's totally geeky,
This coming from the girl who likes cheeky,

Like a forbidden fruit I'm not supposed to eat,
Like a ten dollar I picked up,
That I'm not supposed to keep.

You're that strange, strange person,
That I'm not supposed to see,
You're everything I know,
You're my one and only L. O. V. E.

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Haha. Don't worry. Nothing inspired me to write these totally emo poems. I was just being random and drawing from all the movies i've seen.
I've never been in love.
^_^ Don't really care. I'm happy at this point, being boyfriend-less.
Cheers,
Net.

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