Dum Dee Dum... I'm Nutty Net and I often go nuts :P I have way more fun than the average human should, and I'm blessed with a beautiful family and so many lovely opportunities :) And this is where I come to settle all those crazy floating thought butterflies in my head :)
There's not enough time in my life to hate you, Not enough time to wish you never existed, Nothing left in my heart for you, So go on, walk away before I make you regret you ever lived.
No one has ever treated me like you did, No one has ever made me love you like you did, No one has ever gotten away with a lie like you did, But here's to knowing ya, kid.
Here's to you, Here's to us, Here's to all the lies, you left inside, Now watch me throw you under the bus. Here's to you, Here's to all your games, That you play, I hope today, You die in your pain.
Loving you, Was like loving a thorn in my side, Hating you, Was so much easier not to hide, Wanting you, I resisted the desire not to cry, Needing you, You won't ever bring any more tears to my eyes.
Because you know that you don't have that effect on me, No, not anymore, I'm loving the way you look when you walk out that door. And all the pain that wells up inside, I refuse to let you walk out of here alive. I'll cut into your sweet facade, You'll be wishing you could change who you are.
So come on, step up, take your shot, At this stone cold beating heart, Come on, wake up, take your bets, Will I crack or will I scar, Your poor little broken-hearted pool of lies, Please don't look at me with those cheating eyes.
Here's to you, Here's to us, Here's to all the lies, you left inside, Now watch me throw you under the bus. Here's to you, Here's to all your games, That you play, I hope today, You die in your pain
And no, I feel nothing. No remorse. No shame. I'm too tired to play this game. And no, I won't shed a tear. Nothing for you, Go on, get out of here. And no, I won't hurt your friends, They don't, They won't They never really cared. No, the only bounty I want is sitting right there in your hands.
Here's to you, And all the lying that you know how to do, I hope the next girl that has to entertain you, Is ready to be loved by a experienced liar. Here's to me, And all the happiness I now have the right to feel, And watching you go just seems to get more real.
Oh, baby, please, don't act so flattered, It's not like any of this really mattered, I just wrote to let you know, Nothing you can ever do will make me hurt so, Thank you but you see, You just don't exist to me, And when everything else is better, Here's to you, here's to me, here's to us, we're shattered.
Nothing Else Matters -Me * no relation to metallica* It's the holiday now, you're asking me how it feels to be loved, To be in your heart, to be on your mind, Well, honey, it's like I'm soaring above, All the pain, all the troubles, everything that got washed away in the rain, And all you are to me is all I ever wanted.
You're holding me now, Nothing else matters but the way you whisper my name, You're begging me now, Begging me to leave with you and letting me know that it'll never be the same, As all the days and the chaos, the hate and the loss, I know now, oh I know now, That nothing else matters
When you're here, Listening to all my silly ideas, Watching my eyes glitter with my tears, Wiping them away and kissing me softly to sleep Yeah, this is the life.
This is how it's meant to be, When nothing else really matters except you and me, Where nothing they say and nothing they know, Will ever change the way my love for you will grow, So here's all I need right now, In your arms, we'll make it somehow, Here's what I need, in your soul, Nothing else matters when we rock and roll.
xx signed off at 11:26 PM
Someday Soon
Have you ever woken up sometimes and just thought, goddamnit, life just isn't that bad, is it? And then you get dressed, have a bath, walk out and it rains down upon you like God is just about as emo as he's gonna get. And you stand there thinking, it's ok, i have an umbrella Then you step in a puddle then you get all soggy then you smell like wet dog then you're on a train and it smells like a giant fart then you get off the train and now you smell like a wet dog who just farted then you get onto a bus and you now look like a wet dog who just farted who is also sitting close to someone else who smels like a wet dog who just farted then you go to uni and sit in a whole lecture theatre of boys and someone just farted and you go home. Well, THAT'S MY LIFE :P Oh, and so is poetry so here goes! :)
Wishing On You -Me
So here it goes, The story as it's written, as it's told No torn up pages, no ink that's gotten too old, Just simple letters, in the smallest picture that I can paint, Of how you were mine, and now you ain't. And of all the laughs, and all the tears we cried, And how beautiful we really looked that night, And how something slowly was dying inside, And how every night I'm wishing for your hand in mine
I'm wishing on a rainbow Wishing on a star, Somewhere out there, That's where you are, Your eyes, your smile, your perfect way of making me feel like it's all okay It just can't all be true, so I'm wishing on you, for you.
So I'm standing here, Hoping that somewhere out there you left a clue, Of what I'm meant to do in my life without you, No one left here in this desert to understand, How it feels to not hold your hand. To not know that you're walking back down the street, Arms open wide, waiting to hug me, Wiping away tears and piecing together all my dreams, Why does God take away everything, And leave me here with nothing, but memories of you, and me
Wishing on a rainbow, Wishing on a star, I don't know where you went, boy, but I know it's too far, I just wanna hear your voice, feel your fingers on my face, I wish to hell I'd get out of this place, But I'm just so tired of running, Why can't I stop wishing on you, For You.
All I remember now is you standing here, Just this spot, right here, next to this tree, I remember you living life without a fear, And then the headlights spinning and I wasn't near, I remember the way you looked into my eyes, The way you held my hand and whispered goodbye The way you made it seem like you were free, But how could you, How could you, Leave me wishing on you, wishing on me.
I'd really like to write this down, Quickly, softly, make no sound. Hope that you at least take a minute, To realise the amount of pain I've put in it. These letters, characters, jumping out of the page, Don't know if you can truly read the rage, But I swear right now I'm slapping you senseless, Leaving you defenseless, With every word, and every last note I play.
Maybe it's because you laughed , because you cried, But the one thing you didn't do was try, Maybe it's because you said you'd always hold me through the hardest nights, Maybe I ,should have told you, But nothing inside me could bring me to know you, To know you were going to hurt me so bright with your Blinding lights.
Every step I take now, Bringing me closer to your front door, Can you hear the tune inside my head, My heart is bursting so hard I feel so sore. And nothing I do right now, Is going to make this any better, I just wish you'd goddamned died before you did it, I wouldn't be writing this letter, about her.
But I think Maybe it's the way you said my name, Calling me on the phone and never treating her the same, Always listening to my stupid dreams, I never realised how quick it all seemed, Maybe I should have cut open all those heart-shaped boxes, Found all your letters to her Maybe that lie was just a little better Just a little better.
I'm standing here, In the rain, Just on my lip, The polish on my fingernails, My sanity's starting to slip. Clutching the dripping sheet of paper, All it says is " Thanks, I'll see ya later, I hope you do so well, with her hand in yours, I hope you do so well, that the rain starts to pour, I hope she screams in your ears, Screams in your face, Makes you wish you hadn't given up the chase, But you'll never have me now, Never have me now, Never have me now..... It's too late"