Dum Dee Dum... I'm Nutty Net and I often go nuts :P I have way more fun than the average human should, and I'm blessed with a beautiful family and so many lovely opportunities :) And this is where I come to settle all those crazy floating thought butterflies in my head :)
So....Blogging again... So, aside from Emo Josh, River Cruise Ranting.. there's something else. I have, or should i say, had, a friend, called Adam. I mentioned him a couple of posts ago. We've stopped talking. Stopped as in... Stopped even saying hi to each other, and if we see each other, we look away instantly. It's cold. There's nothing. Nothing is said, done. And ... I said sorry to him. Tried to get him to explain what it was i did wrong. He didn't tell me. He just blocked me. So... I give up. It's hard not talking to someone, and I've never been through this before. But it's... It hurts. I'm feeling so emo, today, aren't i? Sigh.. I don't know what to do. I guess i've lost a friend. Oh well. Bye
I just felt like randomly typing and putting up more icons. It's an obsession, I know. It's sad, but yeah.
I found out today that Josh thought that David and I went out while Josh was here and we had already gotten together. And the truth is, I did, I was with David for just one night, but only because I felt sorry for him. David is a nice guy, but...
Apparently, Josh almost cried when one of the dudes he was with said, oh, David and Net went out, and blah blah. And he was upset because he kinda always suspected that maybe i didn't feel quite as intensely for him as he does for me. And now, when I'm finally getting to like him, he doesn't really believe me that much , because he's scared that I'm still pretending and i'm too afraid to hurt him or something.
Does this make sense?
I finally like him, and he's starting to question my feelings for him.
This is too complex.
Haha.
Erm...yeah...
So...
He's not really saying anything. But, you can sorta tell from the tone of his voice that he's kinda anxious to please.
I don't know.
I know in my last few posts I've been like, omg, I love him, etc.
but when I say love, i mean like a lot. But I don't LOVE him. Not the way he loves me.
Sigh....
I don't know.
You always want what you can't have, and I can have him. It's a case of...
Maybe I'm just scared of committing to one person? That's it. That's exactly it.
I am, by nature, a playgirl. And that's a bad bad bad bad bad thing to be.
Sigh...
Confused.
Whatever.
Anyways...
My everpresent problem is...
The Student Council River Cruise.
Do I go, and end up going alone?
Or stay at home and not bother wasting 25 bucks?
I guess the 2nd proposition sounds good.
I don't want to go with anyone from outside school really. I mean, not with people I know.
I wouldn't mind going if i had a date, but, we all know, that won't happen either.
So....
Yeah.
Depressed now.
Bye.
All Hail the Heart Breaker - The Spill Canvas
I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that
I've never fallen so hard
It's taken everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far
I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that you are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taken everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far
I can honestly say that I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin
I can honestly say that I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected with words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim "All hail the heartbreaker"
------------------------> Josh just sent me this song. I had to update my blog just to put these lyrics in.