Dum Dee Dum... I'm Nutty Net and I often go nuts :P I have way more fun than the average human should, and I'm blessed with a beautiful family and so many lovely opportunities :) And this is where I come to settle all those crazy floating thought butterflies in my head :)
I just felt inspired to write poetry, I get this way when I have headaches. I have been watching movie after movie continously for the last two days, it is starting to affect my mental health methinks. Now, poetry :
Lost in You - Me
I don't understand anymore, If this pain that I feel, Is my heart behind a locked door, And you threw away the key.
It sort of feels like I've been here before, Like these tears are coming back to haunt me, And I don't think I want to feel sore, But sorrow's a probability.
And there's no piece of me left that you haven't shattered, There's no love that you haven't sucked me dry of, I've fallen at your feet, so many times, I'm battered, And this emotion you've left me with, this undying love, Is tearing me, into a million pieces of who, I used to be, And you've got me saying, I'm so sorry, I'm just lost , so lost, in you.
You could call me names, You could hit me across the face, But somehow I come back to you, the treatment's always the same, But in your arms, I find a better place.
I feel like I've been ripped in two, I feel like nothing makes sense, Like I'm just a part of who's standing in front of you, And I can't say I love you in the past tense
No one understands, that who I am was who you made me out to be, And now I'm too far gone, too far gone this cold, winding road to see, That everything, everything I thought I was, Was what I wanted to be for you, And somehow, because, I let myself get too lost in you.
I'm a broken soul, Nothing of me is normal, I will never again be whole, I'll just hope to be free from your torment, Because all I am, All I wanted to be, Was what you said, What you said you thought you saw in me, But I don't know, I don't know what it is you thought you'd seen
Because I've tried so hard, To be who you thought I should, I've tried it all, I did all that I could,
And just when I thought I'd lost everything I had before, You said you were coming back , And now I see you there, walking back through my door, You're like a sharp heart attack
sorry, I said it's over, You said forgive me, I said I'm not sober, You said you loved me, Said you needed me, What am I supposed to do, Am i supposed to take you back just because I've lost myself in you?
Another one i should think, before I hop in for a shower , ^_^
There's a soft little sound, While I'm lying on your bed, I'm trying to get my feet on the ground, And trying to get you out of my head,
And you come back from your shower, And stare at me naked on your sheets, And you tell me to get up and go, And our eyes meet.
Baby, how does it feel, Knowing you can't control me, How does it feel, Knowing that you need me. Oh why can't those glaring eyes see , That everytime you try to force me, I tell you go screw yourself, go screw yourself, my baby.
So I'm telling all these voices, That I should be letting go, Of something that's hurting me inside, Yes, I know, That girl I saw you with last week, She wasn't just a friend, She and I, we got a chance to speak, And all your dirty little secrets she did tell.
Was it not good enough for you, All the nasty things I let you try, All the places I let you take me to, And for all the things you got off on that made me cry?
Time waits for no man, So I'm going to have to speed things up, Kill you the best way I can, Because you're messing me up, messing up our love,
I saw you with her, Her pretty little blonde head, I hope you remember, How she looked lying sprawled on your bed, And I hope you said to her, How much you loved her beautiful body Because I've just done something, Done something that amazes me,
I've made you regret, I'm forcing you to respect, I want you to forget, That slut who put her hands down your pants, yes And if you know me well enough, You'll know I never give up, Your luck has just run out, oh, isn't it tough? I murdered your beautiful girlfriend.
xxooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooo Ok, that one was a bit hmmmmm.... Lol, it was inspired by this movie, where this guy and girl like each other, and then purposely to screw with her feelings the guy cheats on her, with this hot chick, and the girl kills the chick. MUCHO PSYCHO ^_^ Anyways, shower. Mwahz, love you all. xx Netty
Lost in You - Me
You're like a sharp heart attack
There's a soft little sound,
I saw you with her,