Dum Dee Dum... I'm Nutty Net and I often go nuts :P I have way more fun than the average human should, and I'm blessed with a beautiful family and so many lovely opportunities :) And this is where I come to settle all those crazy floating thought butterflies in my head :)
Lol, that's a Lindsay Lohan song, " Disconnected ", it's kinda perfect for my current status of feeling. I'm going emo one day, then really hyper, then really emo. And I realised I've kind of lost something from myself that I didn't know I had in the first place. Not gonna tell you what it is. But it happens about 1 week after you let someone go. Anyways, erm... I got a call from Steven again. He's doing fine, and his Marine thingy's going way awesome. He sent me pics. He looks totally better now than he ever did. <3 Steven. I miss him. Loads. Like, loads. And right now, I wish we were in the same town again and we were next door neighbours again, and we'd go to the movies together again and he'd hold my hand or give me a hug and say, everything's ok. And it's not that anything's wrong. It just....isn't right either. It's hard to explain. But.... We talked about Zach and on that same day, in ELACS we'd mentioned his suicide. ... I think that's why I'm feeling a bit sad. Because I got reminded of Zach. <3 Zach. Rest in Peace. I'll always love you, and I'm so sorry I never took time off to be there for you. I'M so sorry.
